Sunday, August 21, 2016

Freedom of Speech


One of the pillars of strength America was formed upon is our cherished Freedom of Speech.  People have fought and died to defend it.  Wars have been fought to defend it. And now, today, because of YOU, Zen Gardner, Don Ferguson - or whatever your real name is...another war to defend freedom of speech is being fought right now as I write this message to you tonight.  

On your "Just Wondering" website over the last many years you have become something of an expert at the art of 'moderating' readers comments.  Basically if the reader drinks your poison kool aide and showers you with glowing praise; strokes your enormous & pathetically ill ego their words are of course immediately posted, with a loving reply back from you.  The reward they sought all along.  T'was YOU who trained them to do that.

However, if the reader poses questions resulting from the critical thought you go on & on about: questions that make you squirm in your skin, or challenges to one of your fluffy, empty precepts - THAT comment never sees the light of day because YOU censor them. 

You do this so much, you are in fact known for it across the blogosphere.  Your ego has probably blocked you from seeing that in much the same way you censor comments you don't like.  Comments that shine a less than favorable light upon YOU.  It's kinda become your trademark.
Back four years ago when I visited your site I saw you do this to your readers.
In time, you also did this to me, more than once. 

Then almost two years ago you started playing your mind games with the fresh posts I sent you for publication.  Instead of posting them like you'd been doing, you tossed them and placed me on your precious slow drip process...a kind of attrition designed to make someone go away because you no longer give them your 'reward' of posting their writings.  Yes, that was so easy to see thru, and so very lame.  The kind of shit schoolgirls do to each other; Is this why you have become such a whiny little bitch?

I mentioned these odd, erratic behaviors to a couple of folks I corresponded with at the time but my words fell on deaf ears.  They did not listen, they could not see your eyes.

Some of your regulars from 'the garden' and I connected via email, and compared notes.  People would send me copies of the comments you blocked.  Just like every other narcissist, you cannot help but to wanna control the narrative.  You simply know no other way, I understand that.
Yes, I really do!

And I know how very insecure that makes you feel.  Tough.
 I am not here to protect your ego from damage,
It now appears that "Rollo" has that job.  Watch your back Rollo!

Steve  brought me into this Shit Storm" a day or so before his expose post went public.

I promised  not to speak to anyone until after the post went up.
That gave me the time necessary for some auguring, to dig deep
 into the information discovered, and then dig a bit deeper still.

 It's what I do.  I thought you knew that!

I can find anything I want with a little time,
 and I know a couple others who are much better at it than I. 
But I digress.

So Steve's post went up, The Cult of Zen Gardner: A Monster in Disguise, followed immediately by mine, What's Growing in Zen's Garden?, and Soren's The Awakening Spares Neither Man nor Beast followed closely by Ida's excellent post, Along Came A Gardner. which went up a few hours before my second post on the subject, When Heroes FallBeing an honest man having integrity, Steve gave you an opportunity to come clean and show the world the kind of man Zen Gardner really is.  Instead of doing the morally right thing you chose to instead insulate yourself; and show Everybody, the kind of man Zen Gardner really is.

 You drew all your Zenophytes close around you in cyberspace to bolster your panicking ego as your dark and devious mind darted about looking for a way out.  A couple days passed like molasses running uphill as all of us collectively waited to see what Jeff and Dave would do with this startling revelation about you.  The silence was, as they say, deafening!

Later that day I saw you...looked as though you were in a state of shock & awesome panic.  Hey - Donnie Boy; What ever happened to that shit you always spout about how "living in the truth is the ultimate liberation?" 

Practice What YOU Preach Asshole!

It was rather an interesting spectacle to watch this expose about YOU slowly ripple its way across the cyber community.  I saw you again, furious...almost panic stricken really at the thought of all you had built coming under such scurrilous jeopardy. 

I'll take "Fake Gurus" for $700.00 Alex!

I hadn't really 'known' you very long when atherosclerosis robbed me of my legs, mobility, livelihood and lifestyle.  After disappearing for 5 days in the bowels of the San Francisco VA medical center without access to my phone or property; at last an orderly came in with a phone I'd never seen saying I had a call.  Still groggy from an ordeal in  hell I mumbled "Who is it?"- and he asked me  if I knew a zen gardener.  I told him it was my yard boy, and took the phone from his hand. 

You heroically "rescued" me from the clutches of the matrix right in front of all your kool aide drinking, hero worshiping Zenophytes.  What a hero you must have felt like that day.  And you milked it for all it was worth.  You did a Go-fund-me among the Denizens of your cultist online garden to help me out financially since the VA still hadn't approved my benefits claim going on four years at that point in time. 

I must have looked like a real prize to you for whatever perverse agendas that play out in that incredibly crafty & intelligent mind of yours.  There I was, broke, crippled, and all alone.  Exactly what you look for in your victims, as well as those whom you only exploit.  Hell, I was even gullible enough to still be hanging around with you online after seeing several red flags; which were indicators of a specific personality type.

Been there, done that. People such as yourself are nothing new to me. They don't scare me.  You are no different than Trump or Clinton, no difference at all.  Just like them, you must control the narrative, but most especially when the narrative is focusing a megawatt spotlight on YOU and your pathetic life.

When I was fresh out of the hospital; you sent $700 to my PayPal account.
Oh how you bragged about that to your believers.  You sent 700 bucks to a crippled spiritual vet with a blog...knowing fucking well I would sing your praises to the world, which like a fool, I did.  I had already seen enough red flags with you to begin having some reservations.  I should have augured your ass right then and there; done the due diligence, but I didn't.  I'd just had a failed surgery for the third time and whiny little bitches weren't a priority to me then.  A few months went by and my VA claim was approved.  Sweet.  There was just the one thing I wanted to do with that first check.  I sent 700 bucks right back to your PayPal~No strings tied to me you devious motherfucker.

 Didn't anyone ever tell you that those who are child sex cult leaders in their misspent youth DO NOT get to grow up to be spiritual gurus of any kind or types.  Oh, that's right"We didn't have outside information, not even music.  This was as insular as you can get except outright captivity."  Those ARE your words, right?

 Don't want you to start whining about how I treated you badly.

You see Donnie boy, you don't need someone from outside, or even music to tell you that pedophilia is not just wrong, it's Immoral.  Period.  Everybody Knows That!

 It's just a natural part of being a whole, healthy, balanced human.

 Hey, I think I see the problem!

You see Donnie, when Steve gave you a chance, you went straight to ego, then typically barricaded yourself there surrounded by all your loyal mindless Zenophytes and Denizens. There you continued to stew in your own insanity and lust for power & control which has now brought you to the brink of meltdown.  That is to say the meltdown of your personality.  Your character, whatever it once was, or would have become is long past redemption.  In my professional opinion so is your tormented soul.

You forget, Donnie Boy that for 25 years I made my living as a counselor.  I never bragged about my mad counseling skills, or a few other items, because they weren't generic to the conversation at that time; and I long ago learned to be wary of giving strangers too much personal information until they gain your trust, and YOU never did, Donnie.  You never once earned my trust, which is why I am so impartial about all of this.  

I just go where the story takes me.  Simple as that.

The truly hilarious thing in all this cyber attack on Augureye Express is I've been considering a long hiatus from the blog possibly even stopping because after 4 years I've pretty much said my piece, but YOU Donnie Boy, have recently re-filled my tank & inspired me to soldier on a while longer, if for no other reason than to make sure every person with a tablet, phone or computer will know your face, and your crimes against children.
Gee, I guess you're an inspirational figure after all.

Yes, I prefer to refer to you with the diminutive "Donnie Boy"
just because I know it irritates you.  Should I instead refer to you
as Apollos, the name the other cult members knew you by?
You'd like that wouldn't you Donnie Boy?

Tell Ya what Donnie, you forced me to break a promise.
I promised myself, and my readers that I was done writing
about you & your cults.  But you came after me because of
the photographs I've been posting of you.
You never saw that coming, did ya?  Pretty Revealing, eh?
Eyes being the window to the soul and all that,
It must have been the reason for the big hat & gargoyle shades.
Your trademark, your brand
The guru who was afraid to look folks right in the eye.

I know you hate the literal shit out of what I have done.  Tough.
You know as well as I do how short the human memory span is especially these days.
You know very well that time will bury all the words written about you this month, but
those portraits of YOU are out there on the internet for all time, and pictures,
as we all know are worth a thousand words.  My contribution to the cause.
Actually considering making a coffee table book out of those images.

So now I AM  so done writing about you.  I am old and my balls are low and I want
 only good things in my life - YOU simply don't qualify.  YOU do not matter.

Did your spiritual scams pay well enough for a plastic surgeon to change your looks?
Doesn't matter how good a face lift you get, it will not make you safe; because there just
ain't no way to hide those lying, tortured, fearful eyes of yours.

Perhaps this will be my last blog post ever, and this open letter to YOU will be the 
sentinel I leave behind to forever sound the Parasite Alert.  How about that????

                                          You should never have fucked with my site, 
                                     hacking in like a cowardly fucking thief in the night.

So the remaining space in this post is reserved for the words of others...
Oh no, not those incriminating & revealing comments from those who escaped your web of lies, the comments you hacked into my site to prevent people from reading...those are likely gone forever cause you disappeared them, didn't you.  No; the words coming next that you should fear even more than those readers, are from two sorts of people.  The first is a few extremely telling comments sent to me by someone who also saw you; they saw your Aura and what they saw there gave them some pause, & cause to be concerned, to be very concerned.  so let's do this, eh Donnie Boy....
            I always noticed a certain nervous energy, not grounded, scattered,
very head-centric, at times not very present and not embodied 
(not “Zen” at all). 
I’m good at reading people to an extent. It’s what I do for a living. But I didn’t say anything since it was none of my business and I cannot just go around telling people what I see through their mask of personality and armor they have built around themselves unless they come for a session to me. As obviously we all have our own masks and shadows since everyone is “wounded” 
to one degree or another.

I also intuitively knew that there is fear and a deep shadow lurking within you; 
even possibly entity attachments .
Now I know why,
           and what I saw and felt but I certainly didn’t expect these revelations.
I’m not denouncing your well-meaning intentions and good-hearted nature
that I see as well  (or maybe is that a mask as well?).
              But “intention” is not enough, nor just having a “nice” personality.
To round out our sojourn into YOUR world, of sociopathic/narcissistic madness,
what say we bring in what an attorney would call, an Expert Witness on the subject.

"Sociopaths are masters at weaving elaborate fictional explanations to justify their actions. When caught red-handed, they respond with anger and threats, then weave new fabrications to explain away whatever they were caught doing.
A sociopath caught red-handed with a suitcase full of cash he just stole, for example, might declare he had actually rescued the money from being stolen by someone else, and that he was attempting to find its rightful owner. He's the hero, see? And yet, in reality, he will simply pocket the money and keep it. If you question him about the money, he will attack you for questioning his honesty.
Sociopaths are masters are presenting themselves as heroes with high morals and philosophy, yet underneath it they are the true criminal minds in society who steal, undermine, deceive, and often incite emotional chaos among entire communities. They are masters at turning one group of people against another group while proclaiming themselves to be the one true savior. They are delusional at so many levels that their brains defy logical reasoning.

You cannot reason with a sociopath. Attempting to do so only wastes your time and annoys the sociopath.
Sociopaths never answer facts; they always attack the messenger(s)
Another very valuable red flag to recognize when trying to spot a sociopath is to see how they deal with attacks on their own integrity. If a sociopath is presented with a collection of facts, documents and evidence showing that he lied or deceived, he will refuse to address the evidence and, instead, attack the messenger!
If you really try to nail a sociopath down to answering a documented allegation, they will quickly turn on you, denounce you, and declare that you too are secretly plotting against them. Anyone who does not fall for the brainwashing of the sociopath is sooner or later kicked out of the circle and then wildly disparaged by the remaining members of the cult group'. Source

Interestingly, the Sociopath is NOT considered as a psychiatric illnesssince: it doesn't hurt the sociopath only his surroundings….meaning they do not suffer, only those around them do that.
I normally leave links after a post for my readers, but since this is an open letter to YOU, Donnie Boy well, the attached links are just for YOU tonight.  Maybe if you had actually read them when you posted them on "Just Wondering" all that time ago, maybe we could have helped ya.  If you had come to Steve, Soren or hell, even me - we would have helped you, had you confessed what you forced Steve to expose.  Instead, we are here, where YOU insisted we all go.

This shit storm that has driven a wedge of fetid excrement down the middle of the alternative community you profess to love so very much.

Right, "Buy My Book."

Donnie, I know you do not understand why so many are so repulsed by you. 
So very angry and disappointed in YOU.
It just escapes you, like so many of your followers are now doing as well.

I bet it just really sucks being YOU right now.

Your little world was so wonderful. after such hard work for so many long years of playing your mind games & running your various scams; seeing it all come crashing down is more than you are willing to see or prepared to deal with like a sane, rational human being.  Shit, there's that human equation thing again. You ain't no fucking human -you are what the elders call an empty. 

You are an empty, soul bereft meatbag, masquerading as a human and now,

Everybody Knows!

You were running one of your scams on the lady who outed you as well and rightfully she should have.  I am hearing tonight that her site is down for the count.  I can see that. She's the one you really hate the most right now, (with me a very close second.) because in YOUR twisted, convoluted insane world she betrayed a confidence you considered to be unbreakable, because YOU Donnie Boy are broken.  So typical of a fucking coward to go after a woman YOU thought was too fragile and sensitive to challenge YOU.  Always preying on the weak and helpless, picking off the cripples like a two legged jackal.

 I see you tonight, trying to talk and scheme your way back to where you think you have a right to be.  Give up Donnie, fold your online cult website, free your Zenophytes to heal as best they are able; then just go walk barefoot till your feet bleed, then keep walking. 

I knew you were a lame fake when your site got that huge expensive makeover.  Almost overnight a guy who always whined like a little bitch about how broke he was, how much he needed all those donations from the kool aide drinking garden party...suddenly had the mega bucks to turn what you began with into a pimped out whore house carnival ride, and such a ghastly UGLY format, no doubt designed by your cointelpro and MK ultra buddies to distract, titillate, and confuse those attempting to navigate you new abomination...after all, it's all about the footfall right, the bottom line. 
"Buy My Book.  Right?

Yeah Donnie Boy, that makeover was something a true zen person would run from as fast as they could; and it always amused me just a little that nobody else said that to you...oh, wait, wait- was THAT the kind of comments from the peanut gallery that sent you into full on pathetic overdrive?
 I can see that.

I do not envy the future you have manifested for yourself with all this insanity.  While desperately trying to keep secret; things that would rough up your reputation a little YOU fucked up & shot yourself in the foot - three times.  While trying to avoid a little embarrassment you managed to bring down your entire operation of your stolen persona.  Shit man, what's the next remake of Donnie Boy going to be?  Buddha didn't zap you for hijacking the purest word in all spirituality for six years ... or did he maybe after all?

Knowing your predictable penchant for doubling down on your own madness it wouldn't surprise me if you show up next as Trumps spiritual advisor with the name of Creepyhands McWeasel Eyes  

I'm certainly no zen master at all, in fact I had to pack up my spirituality, my better side, and send it out to the country for a ten day vacation so I could deal with your narrow ass. Without my better side to remind me not to lower my self to YOUR  pathetic energy level, hell Donnie Boy, I even had me a genuine spiritual epiphany, or at least I thought it was one.  Turned out it was only a really big bout of Schadenfreude.  Simple as that!

Donnie, if I'd wanted the kind of stardom you do, I could have had it, at least once, perhaps twice ~ yet each time I went upon a different, less complex path.   I did not desire all those matrix trappings.  I've never desired them, walked away, and in turn, source led me, protected me, as I found my way.  You should maybe try that.  It won't bring you the sort of happiness you seem to crave with all your heart, but it may, after many long years of your healing and cleansing your soul, if that is even possible after so long of being YOU.  In my life I have suffered grievous losses, most recently three friends, a wolf and use of my legs.  They call that life, it's what we spiritual warriors signed up for just prior to this current incarnation on earth.  I may have lost a lot that was close to me, I may well lose still more yet before my ride is here; but I do have something you've run out of,  friends.

YOU are alone now save for the company of your own kind Donnie Boy, and as I said you brought it all on yourself.  I understand your lovely wife also discovered your monstrous side, your depraved pedophile past and dumped you.  That must really sting.


You did all of this because you were abused yourself long before you ever heard of David Berg.  You became a small frightened cowardly thing which I cannot call a man.

 As far as I'm concerned, 
you've lost your earth privileges ~ so just get the fuck off my planet 
you tyrannical little bitch.

YOU are done here.  You wanna know why you'e finished?  
There is an acronym describing both: your problem-and what people think you are;

Can't Understand Normal Thinking

You'll see it.... So that's it dude. Said what I came to say, gonna back on out of here and get back to my life which YOU interrupted with your sociopathic, narcissistic, need to quash ANY voice not singing your song.  You wanted music?  Well here is a dedication going out across the planet tonight, dedicated to the most emotionally crippled individual I have ever seen.

 I shall close with the only curse appropriate for one such as YOU.

"Live Long and Suffer, Bitch."

Much Love!

© 2016 full re-post with permission only

Update: September 7, 2016
The "Zen Gardner" website Just Wondering
has been shut down entirely, and
the Domain has been sold!!

"Don't Let the Devil Take Your Mind"  


  1. To Zen Gardner:
    I got a message asking why I unsubscribed.
    Simple. I subscribe to Augureye Express and I trust
    him and I believe his research. You are a sicko. A
    pedophile. A hypocrite. I feel dirty for ever having read
    your blog. Walk away. Leave the internet. Disappear you

    > Steven
    Kudos to you Steven for sending me the message Donnie Boy refused to allow others to see. Now, everybody can see.

  2. Interesting. I, too, have unsubscribed from Don's site, but no message asking me why! He has met me ( at AV6 and AV7 ), so perhaps he put 2 and 2 together.

    To think that I supported him….

  3. Poor, poor butt hurt Chaquita Banana. Wow!

    1. No " Biggee" The butt hurt is over on Zendiddlers site ..that where the self admitted 27 year sex child abusing cult leader is named Don is.

  4. While I'm waiting for my comment "approval " on your website... Hmmmm... Got your own censorship, eh Chaquita? I decided to read your holier than thou diatribe again... Such anger...
    I know you like your weed... Spark a fatty , sit back in your wheelchair and reflect a bit on how we're all striving for the big picture.
    I like your website , Biggee

    1. I apologize for not getting your educated &articulate response posted in accordance with your ego.

      Robots don't require sleep
      I, however, do.

  5. Great job C!

    There's nothing this demon can't stand more than those of us willing to admit our own weaknesses in order to expose him.

    Delete my articles that you previously posted Donnie. I now know why you posted them as well as so many others that you got started. Can you say ingratiation?

    Your master can have what's left of our bodies, our desires for fame or even being remembered at all after we are gone. But what he cannot have is our souls.

    You made your choice. Now you will deal with the consequences.


  6. Surely Zen aka Don is involved with CIA ??possible connection through the CoG movement...tried posting comments at his luck...I guess now,s the moment when everyone is too bizy on the final big dose of Zen juice/loosh/kool aid....if he had any integrity or honesty he would shut the site you say he just loves milking the crippled...and it appears he just can't help himself.Personally I think there's much much more to this "debate" than what has been discovered.This has all occurred around the Aquarian/Tiger full moon-astrologically Tigers protect the divine earth family from perverted dark sexual the timing of this event(the unmasking of a predator?)is crucial to understanding some other influences and background to the full story.Personally I always thought/felt he was ex security services trying to turn over a new movement...I mean leaf! Namaste x

    1. I agree, there's more to it. The Xcog site says there is CIA involvement in many of these extreme religious cults. Sick experiments done on vulnerable people to see how they react and to keep the abuse cycle going. Creating sex slaves and mind controlled puppets to push out into various industries, entertainment, political, religious etc. then people lke Don take full advantage, it would seem. Big sighs...what the hell causes these people turn out the way they do? I dread to think. What happens to the souls who cause so much damage to others? Assuming of course they have one.
      Has anyone been able to connect an image or info to the name Don Ferguson online? Is that his name, or just one of a few aliases? I can't find any CoG info with that name attached. It seems to me like too big a job to cover up such a big deal on your own, but well, if CIA are involved in covering asses, then....I find it odd that he can afford to travel around from place to place the way he does, collecting diifferent names along the way. I mean WTH? Has he been paid or did he put away a tidy sum from the Flirty Fishing and child porn? I can't even go there, in my head it's so far removed from genuine love and truth. It hurts to even think about it.
      What a sad and sorry state of affairs.

  7. More putting "it on us" from Zen in his last communication. Here are a few of Zen's latest comments:  

    "Knowing that the external triggers are what is unresolved in ourselves is essential to personal growth and realization. This may sound a bit dispassionate or disconnected to those who want me to grovel in remorse and guilt and shame, but I’ve worked past all that. What’s left is your reaction. And some people have some serious work to do, as do I."

    "As for the commenters bitching about me not posting their tirades….really? What do you think I owe you?"

    Some extracts from what Soren Dreier wrote:  "Don (Zen) is simply not that interesting to me. He is but a flea barking in the presence of lions. ... When it comes to pedophilia, the Cult Zen was in and advanced in, was all about pedophilia and even Zen admits that (under severe pressure), but he claims to be the innocent bystander, which is not even a tiny bit convincing. And I do not give sociopaths the benefit of doubt, since that is what they thrive on. ... I do not care about Don – He is now just another sociopath to me and they will NEVER admit to any wrong doings. It is just not in their DNA and a Heart they do not have. Won’t waste anymore time on these subhuman low life’s."

    Here are some extracts from bloggers' comments from various sites, including this one:

    "Just came across some of the front covers of the brochures put out by "The Family" over the years. Naturally every member undoubtedly saw them. How could Zen's eyes have beheld these and his spiritual self not rebel? Very long link and only works if you copy and paste, but here's a peek":

    "Les Visible's response was so spineless, milk-toast, lukewarm. His 'I'm not taking sides,' has no commitment to stand for what's right, and as you well know, Henry, sometimes that means standing alone. Here are a few quotes from Les Visible's article:

    "I don't know what to think. I wasn't there."

    "...I don't know Zen Gardner so I've got nothing to say about him."

    "I wish Zen Gardner well."

    "I thank God that I have been protected most of the time from the potential bad consequences of what might have been but never was."

    "I'm not taking sides in this affair."

    "I feel even worse for the people who have been long time supporters of Zen Gardner."

    "You're in my prayers Zen."

    "Les Visible says he's a 'strong believer in compassion and understanding' and that he especially feels for 'the people who have been long time supporters of Zen Gardner' but hardly a word about the child victims of the cult, those who need that compassion most. I believe that any who are not coming down hard on this issue, and are only issuing a slight slap on the wrist delivered with a warm hug, are leaving the door open for more abuse. I guess Les Visible has to stay in a good light with the big guys, like Icke, Rense, Rappoport, etc. Oh well, I still think more will keep surfacing."

  8. More blogger comments:

    "You drew all your Zenophytes close around you in cyberspace to bolster your panicking ego as your dark and devious mind darted about looking for a way out. A couple days passed like molasses running uphill as all of us collectively waited to see what Jeff and Dave would do with this startling revelation about you. The silence was, as they say, deafening! ... Being an honest man having integrity, Steve gave you an opportunity to come clean and show the world the kind of man Zen Gardner really is. Instead of doing the morally right thing you chose to instead insulate yourself; and show Everybody, the kind of man Zen Gardner really is. You drew all your Zenophytes close around you in cyberspace to bolster your panicking ego as your dark and devious mind darted about looking for a way out. A couple days passed like molasses running uphill as all of us collectively waited to see what Jeff and Dave would do with this startling revelation about you. The silence was, as they say, deafening!"

    "As for Zen Gardner I can say that forgiveness must be preceded by genuine repentance. ... ...Christian forgiveness isn't a "pass go - don't go to jail card" like the Hillary Standard.  The forgiven still has to pay for what he's done, as well as give up any position of trust he enjoyed previously. ... Gardner's defensive quotes here strike me as manipulative. Probably a deeply ingrained habit. Personally, I equate what Zen Garder's handling of exposure with what Michael Voris did with his. He wants to retain his position as holy man for profit. But to my way of thinking, when such people confess it changes their authority, because there is no getting around the fact that they concealed it before. That's hypocrisy at best, and fraud at worst, and in any case manipulative. ... I only know the mainstream stuff that came out about the Children of God cult (now called Family International), when they were exposed." 

    "Radio silence from Rense and Icke on 27 years of child rape, torture and sex trafficking by Zen Gardner/Don Ferguson, (a) leader of the children of god. Of course Zen Gardner/Don Rerguson considers himself the victim."

    "The Children of God was an intelligence agency operation. That tells you all you need to know about Ferguson/Zen Gardner. He just switched intel operations..."

    "Yeah Ray, nice try. Icke and Rense have protected this child rapist, torturer and child sex- trafficker. They haven't mentioned it and still host this guy all over the internet. I know guys like you Ray, 'If the rape of a child is done out of love then it is ok.' Well, it isn't!! It is an old satanic ploy. Protect the child molesters and pedophiles. Your true colours are evident Ray. We see you. God sees you."

    "So Zen you participated in an organisation that abused children in a systematic way and you think you can purify your soul by writing all kinds of sugar-coated sorry’s and playing the enlightened guru on the internet. Well let me tell you. I am 58 now and only four years ago I became fully conscious of my abusive past and the impact it had on my life and my personal relations. Until now I am still wrestling with it every day. And you think you can ease your mind and soul with this superficial crap you are writing. Why don’t you try to find some of the victims of that cult you’ve been part of and tell them you’re superficial sorry. See what happens. So what are you going to do to ease their suffering????"

  9. Smallie stinks of Stockholm syndrome
    Back to zenophile doosh

  10. Ode to those that hold the line:

    "Where to now
    With all the sordid irony
    Use rocket fuel to
    Dust my collar with piety

    The disturbing lack
    Of own self workery
    Allows me to continue
    Mass group trickery

    I'll use the very thing
    To make you my mockery
    Others people's blogs
    Continue zen-tick-tockery

    Here's a good one
    They know not what they do
    Make me holier than thou
    Turn that finger back on you

    No no no
    Not again
    But your game will continue
    Feigned to the end

    Force hands and minds
    Dance around land mines
    Mix truth with lies
    The trick is in the eyes

    It's there, it's obvious
    It's so plain to see
    Your self advantaged game
    Full of word poop sorcery"

    Chaut, as it came to it, I knew who I'd stand by. You deserve some recognition, regardless of other people's interpretation of passion. Stay standing.


    This is a page from a search posted in another comment. Probably the right hand column is more relevant as it discusses the efforts made by persons who have left the cult to expose it and warn the public. There was/is also a website of former members to support one another.

    This article also points out how difficult it /was to leave, as one had forsaken everything, even one's name, and cut off all ties with the outside world. Nevertheless, many have done so. Much resistance appears to have been occurring in the last ten years of Don's involvement, so was his job to suppress this?
    this activity? Has he been supporting other leavers in the past 17 years?

    An enlightening read….

  12. How did I get involved in all this ?
    WTF'd I do ? ..... WTF'd I do ?

  13. "Deprived of music? Singing and playing the guitar, two of the hallmarks of this cult, are they not considered "music"?

    From the videos and photos, these would appear to play a large part in this cult's activities."

    Hope you have seen the post from Soren which references a post from Ryan - another must read.

  14. TRUTHER?! WTF??!! Don, or 'zen' or whatever you are, I *cringe* (ewwww) to think of the times I praised your writing don/zen (puke). So we used your book as a dead man renovating the shower. ...Where the hell is Bad clown at a time like this??
    The contributing writers and commenters made that site, not EWWWWW.
    To any else who got as duped, 'Vamplifiers', all around. (Magic Hat Hoppy Red Ale) Giant bonfires of sage burnings as well. The finest single malt for Chautauqua.

    1. "He" is acquiring so many 'nicknames" because when we speak the name which must not be spoken; we puke up our souls. In an effort to prevent further such problems I have created a name for "him whose name must never be spoken again" and that name is:

      Creepyhands McWeasel Eyes

      With just a little effort from all of us, we can get this to not only stick, it might just go viral. For those following this mess, you know it gets deeper and stranger by the day. I will attempt to keep "Parasite Alert" updated with breaking developments, and of course more eye candy; however I have about reached the point in all this where I need to back off and get back to my life, and the work which has been piling up neglected, oh yeah, there's that mess in the kitchen as well.

      It's called saturation point and I am there. Only so much I can do.
      A couple weeks ago now someone pointed out a little wildfire smoldering on the web, I took a look, then tossed in the gasoline I just happened to have brought, I suppose you could fairly say I felt COMPELLED to do it!! Words fade so very quickly from our minds,and attention span: but those photos
      (and the ones to come) not only reveal the true person to us, but they're going to be on the web forever, haunting him every damn day. More surprises are unfolding every day...this rabbit hole goes a damn sight further down that we first understood so buckle up and order some big ass bark bags from Amazon.

      And just how the hell did you know what I drink?

    2. From one of your comments here on the Creepyhands McWeasel Eyes blog post series.

  15. I was always amazed at how many articles he penned in such a short amount of time, and where he got the money to travel to all these conferences.

    1. Maybe he has 'literary' pals in...Langley, Virginia...coz I wondered the SAME THING. Always 'too slick' and 'too glib' and too...'guru garbaged' out, for my liking and I see this as a deeply Positive event for the TRUTH 'movement' or whatevertheHell we wanna call it. It is a classic 'case in point' that...THE T-R-U-T-H...WILL...OUT!! Great work on here too...and many thanx to you for taking this 'approach' and as a 'side' effect of this...

      Also, reminding A GREAT MANY PEOPLE of precisely WHAT...occurred to these poor children and everyone who suffered in this and any other cult.

      Whilst,'Creepy, McShiftyDartingeyes' has utterly BLOWN his entire game (GOOD)... with this asshole's TRUE NATURE...stating ...'I'm a Free Man, I have no GUILT or SHAME, I am FREE'.

      To CCN's Angela (powerless)DISNEY and the fawning and utterly shameful ...clip with Mel V.where he does a fake tears, display that is frankly...NAUSEATING!!

      So, the bastard and basically all those who are on the gravy train to Damage Control Central with him are no doubt, collectively cancelling laxative orders...I predict there is MORE TO COME...Annabelle.

  16. What Montel had to say:

  17. I will stand with you on this. I should have known better. Got too used to the stench of evil that it almost became acceptable.

    Much of what is considered spiritual and awakened is evil incarnate.

  18. Angela power disney interviews Zen Gardner 22nd August 2016 about his recent confession etc.
    2hours long -

  19. If you are disconnecting a 'relationship' with a psychopath it is important to remember not to ever return in any fashion, except in total strength and awareness. Sudden flashes of compassion, or a false sense of nostalgia will be viewed by them as a major weakness and vulnerability, and they will make you pay.


      Daily updates on the post "Parasite Alert"

  20. Holy holy guacamole
    These jokers use carpenter homily
    Make associations across Jesus nation
    Lead into fiction zendiddlers station

    Use old lady of Disney ilk
    The one who liked kids dressed in silk
    Fool the zenastrians who repent again
    Played into hands of vipers den

    As more unravels on COG
    Slythering past even the poet of dog
    This darkness spreads wide and high
    Into rich pockets who defiled the Nile

    This jokers line will come to end
    Perhaps before the merry men
    Who laugh and point at his every word
    Resembling stinkiest sloppy turd

    You pulled every trick in the book
    Lie, distract, don't make eyes look
    But we got more than that for senses
    Gut instinct for your offences

    And all the rest who follow him
    Did so only on ego's whim
    All those children under your care
    Look at you in truth and stare

  21. Patrick, me likes your poem very much.

    I'm only halfway through today's Zen interview. He spends a lot of time espousing the virtues of the cult before he speaks of how it became horrendous. Says he always stopped child abuse, but how does any father allow his kids to be off in a foreign country (Japan) with no communication with them? I wish I was doing the interview with him. First thing I'd ask is, "Surely you saw all the covers of the pamphlets the "Children of God" handed out over the years, covers that push pedophilia, incest, being a whore for Jesus, etc., how could you not have rebelled against those? I don't believe your innocence.

  22. I really doubt it was a "more or less blind interview". These things are carefully planned well in advance, hence zendiddler's (proper reference to Peek Crackers here - naughty of me to use that word in a poem - shit have I become zenified already) lack of response to perfectly articulated questions from the beginning.

    I could say I love how Angela leads into zester's debris article with her last line...over to you JESUS!! in her bog on zenshite, but it's not that clever really with those for a nose for associations.

    Folks the real questions will not be answered. It is up to some brave survivors to take the reigns with our full support, hands held in the human way, not in the demonic way.

    My question to Zen: just how many ankle biters are you harbouring in there?

    Careful blinders, empathy equals agreement and infestation for followers of the paths of socio and psycho.

  23. Please don’t feel sorry for ZG he is very very sick and what
    they did to those kids is unfathomable.

  24. My question is why hasn't he been arrested and investigated? Is the answer that those who are instructed to arrest have not (in this case) been instructed to arrest? Some have asserted that there's no proof he committed no crime. They are the ones we're up against. The deadly lukewarm, spineless, milk-toast enablers.

  25. Thanks for auguring out this fakir, Chatauqua bro. Kudos to the anonymous poster at Makow's who called for response from our conscious ones on the net. After posting stuff at Just Wondering I had my own falling out with Don around three years ago and knew all was not quite right with this guy. He never would stand behind his absurdities in person but had a ready crew of cult members in his comments section to do his 'consensus' work. I understand why weak minds become enslaved.
    Hey Zen/Don, how could you be part of a cult brainwashing children? Isn't that what yall did to them, for lifelong control? It seems that way. Enslaved kids even defend your agenda. It was all they knew of-

  26. Once a brainwasher always a brainwasher.
    Paths always get others to do their bidding.
    Use every opportunity to perpetuate the lie.
    Need the gullible trusting community and prey on our compassion and lighter side.
    Will never tell the truth.
    Just listen to the positioning in his voice and hand gestures trying to control what's coming out - total control freak.

  27. This really makes me angry. If someone came to you, and told you that they were in a cult, which as it happens is for pediophiliac grooming (fact). That they were in the cult for 27! years (own admission), and that they were a leader (own admission), and that they moved from country to country to escape the law (fact, see numerous videos available)- would you say 'hey man that is ok with me'? 'You have done your work-move on. In fact, be a speaker and a harbinger of truth, write a book (not about your reperations though), make some Money (for yourself)!' Omfg. This has Got to be the defining issue of humanity. I can't trust you-you who have no ability to think conciously and critically. I am currently building my own world where Truth is the foundation. This shit is extremely serious. What laissez faire attitudes and expressions on this I have seen (not here). Follow the money. Have we (not me) all lost our fucking minds? This is not grey, it is black and fucking white.

  28. When is Don going to shut his site down, or better yet when will it be shut down for him.


  30. If you were working for the world ruler money kings and their high priesthood in media and they were looking for a guy to frontrun a cult trashing Jesus and exhalting pedophilia among ghetto bound goyim you would want to hire someone who is down with pseudo-Talmud and kol nidre tactics that fit this memework. Someone capable of producing literature that presented the memeset. If later you were looking for a guy to frontrun a website caging the new age naifs who would never draw up an indictment more specific than 'we call out the archons' then you would look at the track records of the people applying to find some proven experience. It seems like someone really slick with meme spreading could serve a high post in a war by deception led by judas goats. Don dressed himself up as Zen and sported a pony tail but shorn of that he would look much less convincing. For a pretend hippie, some of you may remember, he was pushing the notion that the hippies were just a CIA plot against us. Have some flat earth too, people. Of course I am just an amateur observer of his behavior, like someone watching a crisis actor make money. Don and alot of others are so easily transformed from goat to hero to goat because they themselves have had to perfect the changes in character to succeed in life. They do a disservice to wild goats, which are quite cool to watch cavort.
    The part that puzzles me is Don and Mel Ve laughing it up with duping delight before they got into character for their skype chat. It is a big laugh on us, apparently? Can someone explain?
    Me, I hated Zen already for longstanding stuff not related to pedophilia. I more or less had him pegged as a phony actor who is basically doing the same thing as Gordon Duff and Alex Jones selling memes with a dollop of troot. I call Don the high fructose corn syrup sugar rush of new age idolatry. Rense comes in close with his big score, though. What a stable of nags he trots out these days. I guess he got some results ($$$$) from putting out the 'For Sale' sign last year? Just wondering. Does that explain why he joins the people who framed muslims by executing 9/11, in aggressivley demonizing islam for the world's woes? Pike's WWIII remember was 'zion vs. islam' dragging in the whole world to a millenial conclusion. Has Rense decided to back a dog in this clash of civilizations? Rense, who was Zendon's promotional handler....his chief promotor in the sense of regular headlines.
    The icons do come a tumbling down. An outgrowth of Zendon apocalypse maybe, a look into the twists and turns of Max and Ken O'keefe.

    1. Anon @ 1:38

      Seems to me you've gotten to the root of things. Just about every investigation of debauchery leads somehow to those "money-lenders. Thank you for this insight.

    2. Hitting the nail squarely on it's truth with the observation Re: Jeff selling the site, and selling out himself. Seems there was more money in it by remaining in place as the mouthpiece shill, than selling & getting out. JR lost all credibility a long time ago, with relevancy close behind.

      Of course Jeff doesn't see it as selling (us) out, nope
      He sees it as buying in; to the really big game.