Friday, January 17, 2014

In A Mirror Darkly

I have been thinking about this for a while now; every day and night for a month, + a thousand days.  I've been thinking about the black swan come to roost here on planet earth; and how its arrival has irrevocably changed everything across the board for every living thing on the planet, except maybe the cockroaches.   No other single event in the whole of human history has had the potential to end human history, and this one hits home in the deepest way possible, for me.

The best years of my life were when I followed my lifelong dream to Alaska back in 1975, and made it my home.  I settled in and around the town of Ketchikan, married and started a family.  In the fullness of time I even realized my dream of living out in the wilderness, away from civilization.  Life was good!  As far as I was concerned at the time, I was here for the duration.  Unfortunately, my wife had a dream or two of her own; which included everything I'd put together, except for me!  The best blindside is the one you never see coming, and this one came out of nowhere.  Without warning, in the dead of winter my wife ran off with my best friend, taking my daughter, & son with them.  It happens every day of the week, and yet we're always Godsmacked when it happens.  I think all us guys are alike in that regard, despite the statistics, and the horrendous difficulty humans have with fidelity & loyalty to begin with...we never think it's gonna happen to us...until it does!

Alaska, the Lost frontier

A few years after the divorce I migrated back to the lower 48, but my children and former wife remained in Alaska, where they continue to reside today.  Over the years my daughter and I have established a rhythm of communication which sometimes sees considerable time pass between letters or phone calls; and one of those long dry spells came to an abrupt if not semi-frantic stop the day Fukushima happened.  Being that her mom is quite intelligent, and her dad can hold his own; my daughter is...way smarter than either parent.  This has always pleased me before, but now it just confounds me.  When I called her; it was to verify that she was planning on getting out as soon as possible considering the proximity and being down wind from Japan.  To my utter amazement she explains how it is that leaving is just out of the question; considering it meant leaving a 12 year staff position at work, and uprooting my three grandkids.   Godsmacked!!

Not only was my daughter reluctant to even consider relocation, she went on to explain her point of view to me.  She explained that she had My blood in her veins, and therefore placed an extremely high value on independence, and being able to enjoy the things about Alaska that make it so special.  She said she refused to live her life in fear of every little danger the world had to offer.  Yup, that's My kid alright, and like I said, smarter that either parent.  In fact, that should be the new tourism campaign logo:
Alaska!!  It's to Die for

Unfortunately one of her very favorite things about being an Alaskan is catching, and eating the famed Alaska salmon.  It used to be one of mine as well, so I understand.  We've had us a couple of long phone calls since, and each time spoke of the bioaccumulation of radiation in pacific seafood being a risk.  My daughter put it to me this way: "Dad, we both agree it's a risk, what we disagree on is acceptability of that risk!"  I tried to explain that it just didn't make sense to knowingly eat radioactive seafood, on top of the background radiation we all are exposed to, as well as the medical kind from X-rays and such, but it didn't change her mind at all, didn't even budge it!  Then, last summer she calls to say that they are sending out boxes of smoked salmon to relatives & friends in the lower 48; and did I want one?  In a show of silent solidarity with my daughter, I said "Absolutely, put me down for one."  Because radiation is a tasteless killer, the smoked salmon was as delicious as I remembered.

When you take in the big picture on the fukushima future we all are facing; it becomes easier to appreciate my daughters perspective.  There is no place to run to.  There is no safety, anywhere, its in the air, its in the oceans, its in the rain & the food chain.  That big picture gets much uglier when we factor in GMO food-like-products, and the tons of corexit sprayed & dumped in the gulf after the BP oil spill.  With each passing day the environment becomes more toxic and our food more poisonous; our "leaders" more ruthless and psychopathic.  Excuse me; but has anyone here stopped to wonder just where it is we're being led? 

As I recently said, it seems like I've been watching all this develop, and fester into the current state of malignancy most of my life.  No matter the issue, or subject; eyeballs invariably rolled and minds slammed shut whenever I tried to discuss any line of thought which departed too far from the official party line or socially accepted limits.  Denial and cognitive dissonance are old foes of mine, as they appear every time I've ever tried to expand a mind...or even wedge an idea in thru existing cracks therein.  They are formidable foes indeed: as they are impervious to facts, science, logic and truth, while having inexhaustible supplies of  righteous certitude & unwarranted loyalty to our captors.  Always a tough nut to crack.

The Plane of Desolation

In one of his books, I think it was The Whispering Winds of Change, the late Stuart Wilde spoke of making progress upon the spiritual path; the peaks, pitfalls, setbacks and victories - that sort of thing.  Then he spoke of coming to what he called the Plane of Desolation.  Stuart described it as a barren & featureless landscape where no discernable path forward could be found.  Raise your hand if that sounds at all familiar; if it just about describes how you are feeling spiritually these days.   Ahhh, just as I thought, a nice show of hands indeed!  So here we are on the plane of desolation.  We cannot go back to where we came, because there is just no putting the nuclear genie back in the bottle.  Neither is there any path forward, why?  Because we are out beyond the reach of history; in a no-mans-land that would have given Rod Serling 3D nightmares.  As we used to say in Vietnam, "We're walking point on this one."  Nobody has ever irradiated the entire planet with nuclear radiation before, so there isn't exactly a manual on what we should do next, not that there is really anything to be done at this late date.  We not only allowed the nuclear genie to escape the bottle; we've given him a thousand day and counting head start on destroying everything that lives on this planet, except for those roaches of course, without lifting a finger, or even telling the truth for that matter. 
Life here on the plane of desolation is bizarre to say the very least, and some days it gets downright creepy.  Sin Eaters and Heyokas lurk in the shadows, feeding on the doubts & fears of those wandering about lost, trying to make sense of it all, or even any part of it.   Dream killers abound here as well, because they love the taste of fresh meat, and there's an awful lot of dead dreams littering this place these days, and more on the way.  Then you have all the sleepwalkers, about seven billion of them who are in a walking comatose state of disbelief; unable to comprehend, sensory overload, synaptic dysfunction.  If we had seven billion critical thinking, pissed off humans to work with, maybe a little something might be salvaged, like a slim chance for the survival of our species.  But all we have are the sleepwalkers, and oh yeah, something else, an awful lot of lightworkers are starting to become jaded, and tired now.  Resignation sets in after such a long sojourn, and the demons in their dreams scream at them, "Why bother?"  Team Dark is way ahead on points.

Mankind has made it from the stone age, to the silicone age on science and hard, indisputable facts, and the benefits of it are readily apparent to us all.  Just let the unthinkable actually happen, and all that goes right out the window as we're abruptly ushered into the age of magical thinking where unicorns make radiation harmless, because our denial, err, uh  I mean mind is just that powerful!!  No science or facts required.  Others prefer to make up their own facts, or else just use the ones the government supplies, such as the whopper about all the radiation in the pacific ocean is dissipated because there's so much water.  It dissipated all right: Right into all the fish we eat, all the marine mammals, seaweed, shrimp, sardines, krill and herring.  The radiation dissipated into our food chain; and already, after only a thousand days we're seeing mutations in life all over the planet, not just in sea life.  I think maybe one reason we're seeing mutations so soon is due to the nature of the Mox Fuel at Fukushima -  that extra high grade super potent weapons grade stuff they were making, which is just one more thing that the officials don't want to talk about.*

"Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored." ~ Aldous Huxley

You can take Fracking, Chemtrails, Corexit and all the oil ever spilled in our oceans; and it all means nothing compared to the legacy we will reap from Fukushima - There is no other topic as far as the continuation of the human race is concerned. It's simply incomprehensible to me that the Tokyo Olympics are still scheduled to take place in 2020, they certainly aren't using anything remotely close to 20/20 vision!  Unmitigated Insanity!  What kind of an ego is required for an athlete to want to compete in a seething soup of nuclear radiation when they know full well it means lingering illness followed by a horrid death?  But wait, wait - Tepco says the readings are falling, and that by 2020 Tokyo will be scrubbed clean & safe.  Are you folks really willing to trust your genetic future to these raving madmen?  What choice do any of us have?  At this point the only thing accomplished by all the  world class lying surrounding all things Fukushima is maybe putting off mass global rioting for another day, or week.  Actually, maybe not!  When I consider how many currently occurring atrocities the human race is collectively ignoring right along with Fukushima it makes me wonder if our species is still capable of, or even willing,  to revolt against our self appointed psychopathic "leaders."  Eight years of the smirking chimp didn't get our dander up enough to cause a stir, and so far neither has eight more years of even worse behavior from the savior Obama.  

They say that how a person dies says more about them than how they lived; and ya know what, the same thing applies to an entire species.  Care to hazard a wild guess at what humanities's global denial syndrome is saying about our species just now?  didn't think so!  Not only is humanity not fighting back, but it now seems we've chosen the blindfold option for this execution, this genocide.  You (all of you) have no idea how disgusted & disappointed I am with you...and embarrassed to even be associated with you.  When I was in Vietnam there was but a single prime directive for survival: Never quit - Never surrender because if you did either, likely as not you were dead.  Humanity has done both, and because of it we will all reap the whirlwind.  I thank you, your mutated children thank you; and if they were going to live long enough to give you grand kids, you probably wouldn't recognize them as human, but I'm certain they'd also thank you for safeguarding their future so diligently!

-Reply to Jim Kirwan-
A few years before becoming a blogger I was content to fire off the occasional essay - inspired in no small way by the writing of Jim Kirwan.  After being an avid follower of his work for some time, one day my little voice said to write to him, so I did.  I felt both pleased & complimented to actually get a reply, imagining how busy the fellow must be.  We ping-ponged a few emails back and forth on the general subject of the Neocon grab for total control, and societies general apathy to same.  a few days ago I was cleaning some outdated files from my hard drive, and came across said emails and got immersed into reading them.  Here then, is my message in reply to Jim, after asking his advice to an aspiring writer....

"Hi Jim:
You said it helps to write about what really bugs me, so taking your advice here goes.

Having followed independent & alternative news for many years as (hopefully) millions of us do, the mind simply boggles as with each year the revealed truth gets uglier and the crimes more unthinkable.  The internet is replete with sites devoted to educating the public, raising the alarm, and sounding the clarion call to arms.  There is no lack or even shortage of educated, intelligent and articulate discourse on these sites.  Folks might even conceivably self-educate themselves to fully-informed status on youtube alone; the sheer mass of data is so great. We’ve learned not only the past crimes of the global elite but their future agenda as well, in ever more frightening detail, exasperated by corruption that is seemingly total, allowing crimes and criminals to proceed unhindered by accountability or morality.

Eleven years into this Orwellian nightmare and still the growing cacophony of protesting voices fail to actually result in any meaningful, organized resistance capable of tangible results.  An awfully tall order to be sure, and perhaps an unrealistic expectation as well; but isn’t that more or less the definition of hope?  Have the pacification technologies and various other assaults on human organisms proven simply too much to overcome?  Is there something being done somewhere by someone that might actually unite us all together long enough to throw the bums out; and the news just hasn’t reached me yet?  Is there not a single glimmer of hope on any horizon that we may yet prevail against these dark forces? 

Or is this one of those kinda times when by the time we fully realize just how fucked we really are…it’s already too late? 

The proportions of this nightmare undoubtedly have millions of people feeling like proverbial deer in the headlights, helpless and unable to resist, or even fight back…and we know all too well that the nail that sticks up is the one that gets hammered back down. We’ve been sealed in a box all these long years now.  We know we’re in a box, and it’s fixing to get smaller and wetter.  Being told constantly that we’re locked in a box seems to increase the confusion, and resignation of the population, if there is nobody also saying; “Here’s how we get out….” 
A beach full of people yelling Shark!! and no bloody lifeguards in sight might well sum up what’s bugging me.  It’s a case of cognitive dissonance, Jim, as my mind does not want to accept that it’s hopeless, that these evildoers cannot be thwarted, courted and hanged.  It’s hard to draw positive, hope filled conclusions when people fail to act by the millions and seemingly cannot be inspired or motivated into action.  We know the deck is stacked against us, the dice (and guns) are loaded and the odds always favor the house.  So what do you think personally Jim, is it game, set & match…or is there still an ember of hope faintly glowing somewhere; one that might be tended into a prairie fire?"

Be well,

Jim is still writing, as are so very many others; but are we doing it because we think that little spark might actually still exist somewhere, or because its the only way we know to retain our sanity in a world gone mad?  Here we all are, still running up & down the beach yelling "Shark, Shark" - but nobody is listening.  They're all numbed and dumbed down to the point of zombiehood.  The world can become a radioactive wasteland for the next million years or so...just don't mess with their cell phones!                                                             

I think about all the various things I'm doing 'for my health' and between the meds, the supplements, dietary restrictions & such it's become quite a regimen.  I ask myself, "Why bother?" when I can actually taste the GMO additives when I consume something containing them, which is fast becoming everything.  Or perhaps it's just the chemtrail residue, hard to say just where that metallic taste in the back of the throat  comes from these days.  Ya know, if Monsanto is so damn proud of their products, why don't they wanna label them?  It used to bother me, but not anymore.

Grasshopper - "But master what do I do when facing such overwhelming odds"
              Master Po - "You Lose!"

When you come right down to it I really have no idea why I ever expected your run-of-the-mill everyday humans to revolt en masse at the same time to save themselves; when it is historically clear what quisling cowards we are, as a race.  Always willing to let someone else come to the rescue; be it government, paramilitary groups, leprechauns, angels, aliens or 'God' himself. (why not Herself?)  Clergy & congress are just too busy boinking young boys to be bothered with doing their sworn jobs these days, along with about one thousand school teachers over the last five years who've had sex with their students.  We are truly a sick & perverted lot, ain't we?  Oh I know how hard it is to be honest with each other about such things, and perhaps even harder to be honest with ourselves, in the silence at the heart of things.  If we fail to protect our children from pedophiles, why would we protect them from radiation, or poison food from Monsanto?
Yes, I've been thinking about these things a lot lately, (someone has to) trying so hard just to understand why we humans deny the truth which is staring us right in the face, and refuse to do a single thing about it.  Every other living creature on this planet acts immediately to evade disaster when their life is threatened, but not humans.  And we're such a prideful lot we tell ourselves that dumb animals don't have a sense of self as humans do.  Offhand, I'd say that we are the dumb animals hereabouts.  We humans just continue strolling down the railroad track (the one with the bridge out up ahead) convinced the sound behind us is only the wind...yet we're too frightened to glance over our shoulder to be sure.

Who We Gonna Call? - Fearbusters?

Then I begin thinking about how very long I've been on this spiritual path, and my expectations of it.  I think about how by this time I kinda expected better results, something shiny and ethereal, or maybe the spirit of Stuart Wilde appearing in meditation, or a dream; something to let me know I'm on the right path, or even getting close to it.  There are folks on this planet who dedicate themselves to prayer, who are more or less in a constant state of prayer 24/7 year round.  I rather expect that they as well are maybe expecting better results from an all powerful, all knowing 'God'.  How about all the sexually abused and traumatized children who in a last hope for salvation turn to praying to 'God' to please make it stop?  

I wanna know, just exactly where 'God' is in all this insanity we consider acceptable, and even normal?  And, please, nobody suggest to me that it isn't for us to know the mind of our creator, because that's just more evasive denial & magical thinking.  Why in the world shouldn't we know the mind of our creator? Does 'he' have something to hide from us?  And since I'm on the subject of 'God'- who out there can explain to me who this dude was talking to when he supposedly said "Let there be light" - I mean after all, he was said to be alone at the time. What bovine excrement!
All of these things have been doing the Maytag routine; spinning round & round in my head as my mind tries to understand, and find some true meaning in this dystopian nightmare, and why as a species, humans are electing to ignore it.  My heart aches knowing that those I love are catching the concentrated brunt from that continuously erupting nuclear volcano.  I respect them for the honor in their point of view.  Unlike so many these days, my daughter isn't in denial about the lethality of her environment.  It may kill her in the end, but it will never rob her of her way of life.  A fully informed conscious choice, it used to be called having the courage of your convictions.  In the fullness of time my heart hopes she can live with the consequences of her decisions and choices.  Pick your spot, dig in for the duration, and try to create as much true joy and love as you can, because friends, things are only going to get worse from here on.
So that leaves an awful lot of zombies just going thru the motions, intentionally blind & oblivious to all things unthinkable.  Despite the built in irony, something just doesn't add up here !  The answer cannot be found using only the belief system currently in place, there seems to be some missing data, or concept that would tie it all together like an Agatha Christie mystery novel.  

Then a few nights ago as I was writing an email to a friend in Alaska, there it was!  
I sometimes have the TV on when I write, more as another presence in the room than anything to pay attention to, with the sound turned low enough to be barely audible; helps me concentrate.  So there I was at the keyboard composing my thoughts, when suddenly my television began making more sense than it ever has before.  A character in some new series or another was delivering his dialogue; his view of life while talking with a co-worker, and it dug into my brain like a tick, which if ya know my brain as well as I do, means there is something to it...pretty or otherwise.  So I will leave you here with what I heard: to make of it what you will.  I don't care... "I'm 'Charlie Mike', over." *

"It's all one ghetto man, a giant gutter in outer space.  I think Human consciousness is a tragic misstep in evolution.  We became too self-aware.  Nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself, we are creatures that should not exist, by natural law.  We are things that labor under the illusion of having a self; this accretion of sensory experience and feeling - programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody...when in fact everybody's nobody.  I think the honorable thing for our species to do is to deny our programming, stop reproducing, walk hand in hand into extinction, one last midnight.  Brothers and sisters opting out of a raw deal."
                                                                    ~'Rust'  (True Detective) ~

 May the Source be with You!
*'Charlie Mike' Vietnam radio code for - "Continuing Mission"
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