ANOTHER OPEN LETTER TO ZEN GARDNER
On your "Just Wondering" website over the last
many years you have become something of an expert at the art of 'moderating'
readers comments. Basically if the
reader drinks your poison kool aide and showers you with glowing praise;
strokes your enormous & pathetically
ill ego their words are of course immediately posted, with a loving reply back
from you. The reward they sought all
along. T'was YOU who trained them to
do that.
However, if the reader poses questions resulting from the critical thought you go on & on about: questions that make you squirm in your skin, or challenges to
one of your fluffy, empty precepts - THAT comment never sees the light
of day because YOU censor them.
You do this so much, you are in fact known for it across the
blogosphere. Your ego has probably
blocked you from seeing that in much the same way you censor comments you don't
like. Comments that shine a less than
favorable light upon YOU. It's kinda
become your trademark.
Back four years ago when I visited your site I saw you do
this to your readers.
In time, you also did this to me, more than once.
Then almost two years ago you started playing your mind games with the fresh posts I sent you for publication. Instead of posting them like you'd been doing, you tossed them and placed me on your precious slow drip process...a kind of attrition designed to make someone go away because you no longer give them your 'reward' of posting their writings. Yes, that was so easy to see thru, and so very lame. The kind of shit schoolgirls do to each other; Is this why you have become such a whiny little bitch?
Then almost two years ago you started playing your mind games with the fresh posts I sent you for publication. Instead of posting them like you'd been doing, you tossed them and placed me on your precious slow drip process...a kind of attrition designed to make someone go away because you no longer give them your 'reward' of posting their writings. Yes, that was so easy to see thru, and so very lame. The kind of shit schoolgirls do to each other; Is this why you have become such a whiny little bitch?
I mentioned these odd, erratic behaviors to a couple of
folks I corresponded with at the time but my words fell on deaf ears. They did not listen, they could not see your
eyes.
Some of your regulars from 'the garden' and I
connected via email, and compared notes.
People would send me copies of the comments you blocked. Just like every other narcissist, you cannot
help but to wanna control the narrative.
You simply know no other way, I understand that.
Yes, I really do!
And I know how very insecure that makes you feel. Tough.
I am not here to protect your ego from damage,
It now appears that "Rollo" has that job. Watch your back Rollo!
Yes, I really do!
And I know how very insecure that makes you feel. Tough.
I am not here to protect your ego from damage,
It now appears that "Rollo" has that job. Watch your back Rollo!
Steve brought me into this Shit Storm" a day or so
before his expose post went public.
I promised not to speak to anyone until after the post went up.
That gave me the time necessary for some auguring, to dig deep
into the information discovered, and then dig a bit deeper still.
I promised not to speak to anyone until after the post went up.
That gave me the time necessary for some auguring, to dig deep
into the information discovered, and then dig a bit deeper still.
It's what I do. I thought you knew that!
I can find anything I want with a little time,
and I know a
couple others who are much better at it than I.
But I digress.
But I digress.
So Steve's post went up, The
Cult of Zen Gardner: A Monster in Disguise, followed immediately by
mine, What's Growing in Zen's Garden?,
and Soren's The
Awakening Spares Neither Man nor Beast followed closely by Ida's excellent post, Along
Came A Gardner. which went up a few hours before my second post on
the subject, When Heroes Fall. Being
an honest man having integrity, Steve
gave you an opportunity to come clean and show the world the kind of man Zen
Gardner really is. Instead of doing the morally right thing you chose to instead
insulate yourself; and show Everybody,
the kind of man Zen Gardner really is.
You drew all your Zenophytes close around you in cyberspace to bolster your panicking ego as your dark and devious mind darted about looking for a way out. A couple days passed like molasses running uphill as all of us collectively waited to see what Jeff and Dave would do with this startling revelation about you. The silence was, as they say, deafening!
You drew all your Zenophytes close around you in cyberspace to bolster your panicking ego as your dark and devious mind darted about looking for a way out. A couple days passed like molasses running uphill as all of us collectively waited to see what Jeff and Dave would do with this startling revelation about you. The silence was, as they say, deafening!
Later that day I saw you...looked
as though you were in a state of shock &
awesome panic. Hey - Donnie Boy; What ever happened to that shit you always spout
about how "living in the truth is the ultimate
liberation?"
Practice What YOU Preach Asshole!
It was rather an interesting spectacle to watch this expose about YOU slowly ripple its
way across the cyber community. I saw
you again, furious...almost panic stricken really at the thought of all you had
built coming under such scurrilous jeopardy.
I'll take "Fake Gurus" for $700.00
Alex!
I hadn't really 'known' you
very long when atherosclerosis robbed
me of my legs, mobility, livelihood and lifestyle. After disappearing for 5 days in the bowels
of the San
Francisco VA gardener . I
told him it was my yard boy, and took the phone from his hand.
You heroically "rescued" me from the clutches of the matrix right
in front of all your kool aide drinking, hero worshiping Zenophytes. What a hero you must have felt like that
day. And you milked it for all it was
worth. You did a Go-fund-me among the Denizens
of your cultist online garden to help me out financially since the VA still
hadn't approved my benefits claim going on four years at that point in
time.
I must have looked like a real prize to you for whatever perverse agendas
that play out in that incredibly crafty
& intelligent
mind of yours. There I was, broke,
crippled, and all alone. Exactly what
you look for in your victims, as well as those whom you only exploit. Hell, I was
even gullible enough to still be hanging around with you online after seeing
several red flags; which were
indicators of a specific personality type.
Been there, done that. People such as yourself are nothing new to me.
They don't scare me. You are no
different than Trump or Clinton , no difference at all. Just like
them, you must control the narrative, but most especially when the narrative is
focusing a megawatt spotlight on YOU and your pathetic life.
When I was fresh out of the hospital; you sent $700 to my PayPal account.
Oh how you bragged about that to your believers. You sent 700 bucks to a crippled spiritual vet with a blog...knowing fucking well I would sing your praises to the world, which like a fool, I did. I had already seen enough red flags with you to begin having some reservations. I should have augured your ass right then and there; done the due diligence, but I didn't. I'd just had a failed surgery for the third time and whiny little bitches weren't a priority to me then. A few months went by and my VA claim was approved. Sweet. There was just the one thing I wanted to do with that first check. I sent 700 bucks right back to your PayPal~No strings tied to me you devious motherfucker.
Didn't anyone ever tell you that
those who are child sex cult leaders in their misspent youth DO NOT get to grow up to be
spiritual gurus of any kind or
types. Oh, that's right, "We didn't have
outside information, not even music.
This was as insular as you can get except outright captivity." Those ARE your words, right?
Don't want you to start whining about how I
treated you badly.
You see Donnie boy, you don't need someone from outside, or even music to
tell you that pedophilia is not just wrong, it's Immoral. Period. Everybody Knows That!
It's just a natural part of being a whole, healthy, balanced human.
It's just a natural part of being a whole, healthy, balanced human.
Hey, I think I see the problem!
You see Donnie, when Steve gave you a chance, you went straight to ego,
then typically barricaded yourself there surrounded by all your loyal mindless
Zenophytes and Denizens. There you
continued to stew in your own insanity and lust for power & control which has now brought you to the
brink of meltdown. That is to say the
meltdown of your personality. Your
character, whatever it once was, or would have become is long past
redemption. In my professional opinion so is your tormented soul.
You forget, Donnie Boy that for 25
years I made my living as a counselor. I
never bragged about my mad counseling skills, or a few other items, because
they weren't generic to the conversation at that time; and I long ago learned
to be wary of giving strangers too much personal information until they gain
your trust, and YOU never did, Donnie.
You never once earned my trust, which is why I am so impartial about all
of this.
I just go where the story takes
me. Simple as that.
The truly hilarious thing in all this cyber attack on Augureye Express is I've been
considering a long hiatus from the blog possibly even stopping because after 4
years I've pretty much said my piece,
but YOU Donnie Boy, have recently re-filled my tank & inspired me to soldier on a while longer, if
for no other reason than to make sure every person with a tablet, phone or
computer will know your face, and your crimes against children.
Gee, I guess you're an inspirational figure after all.
Yes, I prefer to refer to you with the diminutive "Donnie Boy"
just because I know it irritates you. Should I instead refer to you
as Apollos, the name the other cult members knew you by?
You'd like that wouldn't you Donnie Boy?
Gee, I guess you're an inspirational figure after all.
Yes, I prefer to refer to you with the diminutive "Donnie Boy"
just because I know it irritates you. Should I instead refer to you
as Apollos, the name the other cult members knew you by?
You'd like that wouldn't you Donnie Boy?
Tell Ya what Donnie, you forced me to break a promise.
I promised myself, and my readers that I was done writing
about you & your cults. But you came after me because of
the photographs I've been posting of you.
You never saw that coming, did ya? Pretty Revealing, eh?
Eyes being the window to the soul and all that,
It must have been the reason for the big hat & gargoyle shades.
Your trademark, your brand
The guru who was afraid to look folks right in the eye.
I know you hate the literal shit out of what I have done. Tough.
You know as well as I do how short the human memory span is especially these days.
You know very well that time will bury all the words written about you this month, but
those portraits of YOU are out there on the internet for all time, and pictures,
as we all know are worth a thousand words. My contribution to the cause.
Actually considering making a coffee table book out of those images.
about you & your cults. But you came after me because of
the photographs I've been posting of you.
You never saw that coming, did ya? Pretty Revealing, eh?
Eyes being the window to the soul and all that,
It must have been the reason for the big hat & gargoyle shades.
Your trademark, your brand
The guru who was afraid to look folks right in the eye.
I know you hate the literal shit out of what I have done. Tough.
You know as well as I do how short the human memory span is especially these days.
You know very well that time will bury all the words written about you this month, but
those portraits of YOU are out there on the internet for all time, and pictures,
as we all know are worth a thousand words. My contribution to the cause.
Actually considering making a coffee table book out of those images.
So now I AM so done writing about you. I am old and my balls are low and I want
only
good things in my life - YOU simply
don't qualify. YOU do not matter.
Did your spiritual scams pay well enough for a plastic surgeon to change your looks?
Doesn't matter how good a face lift you get, it will not make you safe; because there just
ain't no way to hide those lying, tortured, fearful eyes of yours.
Perhaps this will be my last blog post ever, and this open letter to YOU will be the
sentinel I leave behind to forever sound the
You should never have fucked with my site,
hacking in like a cowardly fucking thief in the night.
So
the remaining space in this post is reserved for the words of others...
Oh no, not those incriminating &
revealing comments from those who escaped your web of lies, the comments you
hacked into my site to prevent people from reading...those are likely gone
forever cause you disappeared them, didn't you.
No; the words coming next that you should fear even more than those
readers, are from two sorts of people.
The first is a few extremely telling
comments sent to me by someone who also saw you; they saw your Aura
and what they saw there gave them some pause, & cause to be concerned, to be very concerned. so let's do this, eh Donnie Boy....
*****
I always noticed a
certain nervous energy, not grounded, scattered,
very head-centric, at
times not very present and not embodied
(not “Zen” at all).
(not “Zen” at all).
I’m good at reading people to an extent. It’s what I do for a
living. But I didn’t say anything since it was none of my business and I cannot
just go around telling people what I see through their mask of personality and
armor they have built around themselves unless they come for a session to me.
As obviously we all have our own masks
and shadows since everyone is “wounded”
to one degree or another.
to one degree or another.
I also intuitively knew
that there is fear and a deep shadow lurking within you;
even possibly entity attachments .
Now I know why,
and what I saw and
felt but I certainly didn’t expect these
revelations.
I’m not denouncing your well-meaning
intentions and good-hearted nature
that I see as well (or maybe
is that a mask as well?).
But “intention”
is not enough, nor just having a “nice” personality.
*****
To round out our sojourn into YOUR world, of
sociopathic/narcissistic madness,
what say we bring in what an attorney would call,
an Expert Witness on the subject.
*****
"Sociopaths are masters at weaving elaborate
fictional explanations to justify their actions. When caught
red-handed, they respond with anger and threats, then weave new
fabrications to explain away whatever they were caught doing.
A sociopath
caught red-handed with a suitcase full of cash he just stole, for example,
might declare he had actually rescued the money from being stolen by someone
else, and that he was attempting to find its rightful owner. He's the hero,
see? And yet, in reality, he
will simply pocket the money and keep it. If you question him about the money,
he will attack you for questioning his honesty.
Sociopaths are
masters are presenting themselves as heroes with high morals and philosophy, yet underneath it they are the true criminal minds
in society who steal, undermine, deceive, and often incite
emotional chaos among entire communities. They are
masters at turning one group of people against another group while proclaiming
themselves to be the one true savior. They are delusional
at so many levels that their brains defy logical reasoning.
You cannot reason with
a sociopath. Attempting to do so only wastes your time and annoys the
sociopath.
Sociopaths
never answer facts; they always
attack the messenger(s)
Another very valuable
red flag to recognize when trying to spot a sociopath is to see how they deal
with attacks on their own integrity. If a sociopath is presented
with a collection of facts, documents and evidence showing that he lied or
deceived, he will refuse to address the evidence and, instead, attack the messenger!
If you really try to
nail a sociopath down to answering a documented allegation, they will quickly
turn on you, denounce you, and declare that you too are secretly
plotting against them. Anyone who does not fall for the brainwashing
of the sociopath is sooner or later kicked out of the circle and then wildly
disparaged by the remaining members of the cult group'. Source
Interestingly, the Sociopath
is NOT considered as a psychiatric illness, since: it doesn't
hurt the sociopath only his surroundings….meaning they do not suffer, only
those around them do that.
*****
I normally leave links after a post for my readers, but since this is an
open letter to YOU, Donnie Boy well, the attached links are just for YOU tonight. Maybe if you had actually read them when you posted them on
"Just Wondering" all that
time ago, maybe we could have helped ya.
If you had come to Steve, Soren or hell, even me - we would have helped you, had you confessed what you forced
Steve to expose. Instead, we are here,
where YOU insisted we all go.
This shit storm that has driven a wedge of fetid excrement down the middle of the alternative community you profess to love so very much.
This shit storm that has driven a wedge of fetid excrement down the middle of the alternative community you profess to love so very much.
Right, "Buy
My Book."
Donnie, I know you do
not understand why so many are so repulsed by you.
So very angry and disappointed in YOU.
It just escapes you, like so many of your followers are now doing as well.
I bet it just really sucks being YOU right now.
Your little world was so wonderful. after
such hard work for so many long years of playing your mind games & running your various scams; seeing it all come crashing
down is more than you are willing to see or prepared to deal with like a sane,
rational human being. Shit, there's that
human equation thing again. You ain't no fucking human -you are what the elders call an empty.
You are an empty, soul bereft meatbag, masquerading as a human and now,
Everybody Knows!
You were running one of your scams on the lady who outed you as well and
rightfully she should have. I am hearing
tonight that her site is down for the count.
I can see that. She's the one you really hate the most right now, (with me a very close second.) because in YOUR twisted, convoluted insane world she betrayed a
confidence you considered to be unbreakable, because YOU Donnie Boy are
broken. So typical of a fucking coward to go after a woman YOU thought was too fragile and sensitive to challenge YOU. Always preying on the weak and helpless, picking off the cripples like a two legged jackal.
I see you tonight, trying to talk
and scheme your way back to where you think you have a right to be. Give up Donnie, fold your online cult
website, free your Zenophytes to heal as best they are able; then just go walk
barefoot till your feet bleed, then keep walking.
I knew you were a lame fake when your site got that huge expensive
makeover. Almost overnight a guy who
always whined like a little bitch about how broke he was, how much he needed
all those donations from the kool aide drinking garden party...suddenly had the
mega bucks to turn what you began with into a pimped out whore house carnival
ride, and such a ghastly UGLY
format, no doubt designed by your cointelpro and MK ultra buddies to distract,
titillate, and confuse those attempting to navigate you new abomination...after
all, it's all about the footfall right, the bottom line.
"Buy My Book. Right?
Yeah Donnie Boy, that makeover was something a true zen person would run
from as fast as they could; and it always amused me just a little that nobody
else said that to you...oh, wait, wait- was THAT the kind of comments from the
peanut gallery that sent you into full on pathetic overdrive?
I can see that.
I do not envy the future you have manifested for yourself with all this
insanity. While desperately trying to
keep secret; things that would rough up your reputation a little YOU fucked up & shot yourself in the foot - three times. While trying to avoid a little embarrassment
you managed to bring down your entire operation of your stolen persona. Shit man,
what's the next remake of Donnie Boy going to be? Buddha didn't zap you for hijacking the
purest word in all spirituality for six years ... or did he maybe after all?
Knowing your predictable penchant for doubling down on your own madness it wouldn't surprise me if you show up next as Trumps spiritual advisor with the name of Creepyhands McWeasel Eyes
I'm certainly no zen master at all, in fact I had to pack up my
spirituality, my better side, and
send it out to the country for a ten day vacation so I could deal with your
narrow ass. Without my better side to remind me not to lower my self to YOUR
pathetic energy level, hell Donnie Boy, I even had me a genuine
spiritual epiphany, or at least I thought it was one. Turned out it was only a really big bout of Schadenfreude. Simple as that!
Donnie, if I'd wanted the kind of stardom you do, I could have had it, at
least once, perhaps twice ~ yet each time I went upon a different, less complex
path. I did not desire all those matrix
trappings. I've never desired them,
walked away, and in turn, source led
me, protected me, as I found my way. You
should maybe try that. It won't bring
you the sort of happiness you seem to crave with all your heart, but it may,
after many long years of your healing and cleansing your soul, if that is even
possible after so long of being YOU. In
my life I have suffered grievous losses, most recently three friends, a wolf
and use of my legs. They call that life,
it's what we spiritual warriors signed up for just prior to this current
incarnation on earth. I may have lost a
lot that was close to me, I may well lose still more yet before my ride is
here; but I do have something you've run
out of, friends.
YOU are alone now save for the company of your own kind Donnie Boy, and
as I said you brought it all on yourself.
I understand your lovely wife also discovered your monstrous side, your
depraved pedophile past and dumped you.
That must really sting.
Tough.
You did all of this because you were abused yourself long before you ever
heard of David Berg. You became a small frightened cowardly thing
which I cannot call a man.
As far as I'm concerned,
you've lost your earth
privileges ~ so just get the fuck off my planet
you tyrannical little
bitch.
YOU are done here. You wanna know
why you'e finished?
There is an acronym describing both: your problem-and what people think you are;
Can't Understand Normal Thinking
You'll see it.... So that's it dude. Said what I came to
say, gonna back on out of here and get back to my life which YOU interrupted
with your sociopathic, narcissistic, need to quash ANY voice not singing your
song. You wanted music? Well here is a dedication going out across
the planet tonight, dedicated to the most emotionally crippled individual I
have ever seen.
I shall close with the
only curse appropriate for one such as YOU.
"Live Long and Suffer,
Bitch."
Much Love!
© 2016 full re-post with permission only
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Update: September 7, 2016
The "Zen Gardner" website Just Wondering
has been shut down entirely, and
the Domain has been sold!!
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