Monday, January 1, 2018

Homesick Seekers

I have never really felt like I belonged here, in this place, on this planet Earth.

There are a lot of us who feel this way: If you pause to think about it you probably know some folks who feel this way, even though they don't speak about it.  You may even be one yourself.

The symptoms are wide and varied according to the individual but it always ends up with us feeling we're on the outside looking in, not in the loop and not getting the memos. There is this prevailing feeling that we simply don't belong here on this violent, greed infested dust ball on the material plane.

We cannot understand why the morals and issues so important to us don't seem to matter in the cold world we travel through: This place is alien to folks like us, and that makes finding our way somewhere between difficult and impossible.

One would think such feelings wouldn't be so prevalent what with this being the dawn of the Aquarian age and all that, but it just isn't as simple as moving from  one year into the next.  What we're dealing with here are cycles and patterns that play out over the course of 26,000 years.   As the precession of the equinox winds it's way backwards thru the celestial zodiac; earth spends roughly two thousand years in each of the 12 zodiac signs.

After spending the previous 2000 years passing thru the sign of Pisces we're now  witnessing the collapse of a world system built around power, greed war and wealth.  Considering that the attributes of Aquarius are just about polar opposite of Pisces, there is bound to be some turbulence, and we are seeing it every day now.  We're currently traversing the 4th dimensional space-time known as the Kali Yuga, the last of 4 repeating world cycles, and it is called "The age of Vice."

It is this deteriorating, crumbling edifice of the Kali Yuga that's causing all the chaos and insanity we're seeing everywhere.  Time is now up for those who have prevailed & profited from this Age of Vice: but they don't want to leave the stage or willingly allow the changes which must now manifest.  The very nature of vice itself. 

We cannot hope to see the full bloom of Aquarius until after the end of the Kali Yuga, and on that score there is some good news, and some not so good news.   The good news is that all of my research & calculations on the Kali Yuga indicate that it's final end will come in the year 2025, just eight more years!  The not so good news is that the world will be in transition until the year 2325; so none of us are going to see Aquarius in this incarnation.   Get used to seeing soldiers with heavy weapons on every street corner.  This is why so many of us declare that we don't want to come back to this place; we don't want to get stuck with clean-up duty.

   Only Dead Fish Go With the Flow

Over the last several years we've seen increasing interest in 11:11 and what it's true meaning is.  There are seemingly an endless number of explanations but the one that rings true for my soul is that it is a specific message coded into human DNA, and that message is, "Return Home".  Our source (home) is in the 11th dimension. 
Prior to coming here we agreed to multiple incarnations in 3D for various reasons that would serve evolution, enlightenment and our own spirits.  When we see 11:11 we're being reminded to wrap things up here and return home, return to source; in the 11th dimension.  Our work is nearly done here.

If these concepts are confusing try thinking of the different dimensions as frequency wavelengths rather than some place on a cosmic map.  We're being reminded that we do not originate from this place, it's just our 'day job' so to speak.

Planet Earth is a school, and the curriculum is all about balancing negativity and embracing divinity.  You're either here to learn these lessons or teach them; and in some cases both. This is where they send those who still don't get the whole love/unity vibration; and those of us who are wanting off the planet were talked (or tricked) into coming here to be teachers and healers.  Its like the old time school houses where all grades are taught in the same building, in our case, planet.  Some of us are closer to graduation than the unwashed masses who think Trump is their hero, and who cannot think past  black Friday.  

We're here for them.

If we cannot teach them to embrace the love/unity vibration, then maybe the best we can do for anyone at this point is show them the way to the exit.  If we can just find it ourselves.

As I see it, the only way out is UP; as in lifting our vibration higher.  Yes, at first this will make the symptoms of alienation more acute, but after a while it makes you stronger. The first part of lifting our vibration is to detach from the constraints of the material world, to stop believing in the limitations "they" place on us.  By now most of us are pretty battered by this sojourn.  We're weary after a lifetime of struggle, confusion and insufficient information.  After all the effort by so many for so long it's sometimes hard to see the progress.  These are the kinds of things that'll get you wanting to leave this planet.

The sexual predator misconduct by powerful men seemed forever to be a permanent part of our culture; until very recently.  All that has changed now with the "me too" movement blasting the lid off and ending the careers of a growing list of such predators.  Judge Roy Moore could not escape it, and neither will Donald Trump.  We will never allow things to go back the way they were. 

Even a few years ago normalizing same sex marriage and making it the law of the land seemed impossible.  Change IS happening, and we will come to see even more; but as already stated, it's moving glacially slow.

Maybe we're feeling so homesick because we think the light  has abandoned us to fend for ourselves in this school turned into a spiritual wasteland.  The one thing we fight most consistently in this life is insecurity.  It is our constant nemesis from cradle to grave; and that which puts that sharp edge on the weariness of the soul.  If you're dealing with insecurity, then here's something to consider:  With this entire spiritual migration hanging in the balance, as well as bringing Earth into the 5th dimension as the Kali Yuga comes to an end; do you think source would trust the outcome to anyone but their very best warriors?  We're the "A Team" folks!

King Corruption has waged a full court press offensive against anything that empowers the individual spiritually.  The age of vice wants to continue forever; but to do that, it must (try to) break the cycle of the Yugas by using pacification technologies to put humanity into a kind of arrested development; preventing us from breaking the threshold of enlightenment.

"If we fail to anticipate the unforeseen or expect the unexpected in a universe of infinite possibilities; we may find ourselves at the mercy of anyone or anything that cannot be programmed, categorized or easily referenced." 
                                                     ~ Fox Mulder ~

 The stressful symptoms of 4D are very strong now, stripping away the thin veneer of plausibility, and exposing all to the sad fact that corruption has been king for a goodly while now as the world clings to hope, salvation and deliverance.

Well, all that hope went away with last years (s)election of Trump as our president.  With each passing day he does his best to destroy the work of his predecessor and remove laws which protect the environment.   We would have to look long and hard to find a more despicable human being than Donald Trump; which is why it doesn't bother me at all that he has spent 109 days, a third of his presidency, playing golf at one of his properties. The hope is that if he's focused on his backswing, maybe we all get a break; but he always has his twitter phone handy, when it's been too long since his latest nasty attack on someone.

The reason we must focus on raising our personal vibrational frequency is two-fold.  First, if you don't know where you're going, any road will get you there, so it really helps to set a destination in mind.  The other reason is because when we do increase our vibration, others will see it, so instead of telling them something, you're showing them how to do it.  It's why we're called way showers and light workers.

All of us here on this planet are part of a grand experiment, a kind of spiritual migration; to see if we could be separated from source, and then find our way back to it.  The problem is that it's a "team sport" sort of thing: We came here together as a soul group, and that is how we must return...nobody left behind.  Not even Trump.

A leading cause of much of my own weariness resembles a cosmic version of Russian roulette wherein every year another friend dies, some years two. Seven friends gone in just the last six years.  It not only has me wondering who will be next, I of course also wonder if this year it will be me. I don't care anymore; I just want to go home.
 Even now I must bear witness to another close friend dying from cancer; its with me every day because she and her husband (who is my business partner), live just upstairs.  I never get used to those midnight runs to the emergency room, or the long hours that follow, waiting for the phone to ring.

Another thing I'm very tired of is not being able to buy any phone or battery powered device that doesn't turn into an IED anti-personnel bomb.  Why, why, why do we accept such incompetence as normal?  Why do we allow even one such device to be sold?  The answer is the aforementioned pacification technologies such as chemtrails, flu shots, GWEN towers, and wild fires.  "They" have correctly wagered that if they keep us sick, lethargic and apathetic we won't fill the streets unless it's to buy the newest version of telephones that explode in your pants.  "They"  know that if they bombard us with social media and GMO foods we will accept anything regardless of how absurd: case in point, Donald Trump!  "They" know you don't like thinking about Fukushima, so they help by making it a forbidden subject throughout the six corporations who own all the media on the planet. 

The internet is full of good ideas (& some stupid ones) on how to maintain our balance and sanity in such times as we are living in now.  Some 'golden oldies' are still as good as ever, so I pass them along in case you've forgotten.

Spend more time alone in the wilderness whenever possible, reconnecting with the planet.  A trip to the Brooks range isn't necessary, any nice quiet forest will do, or deserted ocean shoreline, or whatever calls to your soul.

Eat when you are hungry, sleep when you are tired; all things in moderation. 
Take what you need and leave the rest.

Most of all though, follow your heart, not the demands of social engineers.  The heart will not compete with the raucous noise of the dying Kali Yuga; so to make certain we are listening, it always whispers, forcing us to tune out the unimportant.

Of course we must pursue these spiritual imperatives while also trying to conduct a happy, successful and meaningful life on the planet amid all the sleeping dreamers, not always so easy to accomplish.

It seems most humans nowadays are all stuck in the lower 3 chakras, seemingly unable or unwilling to bridge the heart chakra and activate the upper chakra system.  We need to start living in the transpersonal chakras; this is what is meant by raising our vibration. 

Another thing that helps to raise your vibration is to let go of those things, people and beliefs that no longer serve a purpose in your life. Lighten up, literally, and just dump them.  Cut away the dead weight, Klingons & parasites.  Try this; go through all your belongings; and anything you haven't used or touched in the last year, just give it away.  They're called possessions for a good reason.

About the time the age of vice began; this fellow Christ walked the Earth with a simple message, "Love One Another" and ever since we've been killing each other over how he said it.

                 ~ Incoming ~
             A sampling of some recent comments from readers of the blog.

"I am weary beyond belief, I keep thinking to myself I want to go home.  I don't belong here anymore.  But I don't even know where home is...;( "
" I have two great fears.  One of them is unfulfilled potential,  The other is that I reincarnate again as a human being; I hope I learn what I need to learn this go-around because I sure as hell don't want to come back again."
"I've been dragging my ass to work after the latest holiday chemdump aerial attack. I have an arsenal of homeopathic crap to keep me grade H202,collidial silver, a long list of herbs and seeds, frequency generators, all to keep me in the game for more of what can only be called slow torture.  There is no rest. Endure. Very tired here boss."  
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  1. Some signs you were born on the wrong planet

    1. You always felt this way. For you, elementary school was a prison where you tried to assimilate and belong but it never happened. Your feelings of incarceration grew as you forced your way through the public education system. Grad night was the closest thing to heaven you've ever felt.

    2. You knew there was something off with your parents. You could not talk about it, not with a single soul, because you knew what would happen if you did.

    3. The first time you heard Pink Floyd's "Comfortably Numb" you knew they were playing your song.

    4. Seeing your words and actions misconstrued by just about everyone your entire life.

    5. Feeling claustrophobic in church or in a courtroom, where you could almost see the shimmering net of righteousness cloaking the monsters.

    6. Scanning the perimeter while out in public. Aboriginal peoples did this naturally because they understood that their world included predators. And so do you.

    1. Yes! There you are, living proof of that which I wrote.
      There are so many more of us than one might guess, and for a time
      we each wonder if we are alone, or if
      we're the only one with silent words moving thru our active minds,
      the only one who feels emotion.

      You nailed it for me on all 6, but number 3 especially so.


  2. Victims everywhere you look
    Like fullstops in every page of books.
    Take a deep breath and learn to pause your care, For temporary relief of the matrix scare

    Breathe again Chaut, life is short
    This grand adventure ain’t just for naught
    I feel you’re homesick, but the seeds you’ve sown,
    Show how much our awareness has grown

    Maybe we really are a piece each of home,
    And thanks to your words we are not so alone,
    And possibly the world we weave together
    Is really our home whatever the weather.

    1. Patrick~
      This lonely sojourn would be so unbearable if we didn't have our friends along for the ride to keep us inspired. Yes indeed, we may well still have the chance to reduce the collateral damage of the plunder monkeys, and make it an easier transition for everyone.

  3. I have never felt this "place " is my home either C . There has always been a deep longing for some where else and a knowing that my journey is towards that place .
    I realised long ago that to survive and thrive here I had to be totally in this world but absolutely not of it , and so I am .
    Maybe the ones who remember , and feel this way are here for a reason , to extend our hands and our love to those who find themselves on the path with us ( no matter where they are on their journey ) and to help them on their way , even if it's for a short time or in a small way .
    It's our job to co- create a heaven , here on earth .

    I see great compassion and a deep understanding of "how it is ' in your paragraph where you say no one must be left behind , not even Trump .
    Even the "other " the most abhorrent of those among us represent and are just another facet of God /Source . If we are all part of the "whole " then even those who are not thought of as " of us" are part of the dance, the Lila ,
    Ultimately our enlightenment means total lack of attachment not only to things, which , as you remind us are figuratively and literally possessions but to the attachments of hatred ,anger and all the other base emotions that make us too heavy to take our place in the higher realms where love and compassion are the rule .
    Spirituality is a practice , it's hard work , painful and very demanding , but also potentially joyful , I have faith in us .
    Another great piece C . Thank you .

    1. I totally agree about creating heaven here on Earth, that is part of what the whole transition into the fifth dimension is all about. Preparing for "takeoff" we absolutely must, as you say, dump the weighty baggage of our attachments and possessions; we don't need them anymore, unless our soul decides not to progress towards enlightenment.

      Yes, Trump gets to go along with us, those are the rules. However the rules say nothing about the size of cage he will occupy, his comfort, or his company (Kim Jung Un & Putin.)

  4. I totally agree with you too C . The cage can be any size , it's something we may not be able to control . I think I'd like to include Tony B liar to that list....... and the rest there are so many . :))

    1. We can hire the people from Puerto Rico to make the cages, and pay them from Trumps personal bank account...I'm thinking at a hourly wage of like 100 bucks an hour, and every time he squawks they get to throw paper towels, also paid for by him.

      You can ask John McCain just how comfortable those Vietnamese 'tiger cages' were, I'm sure he knows right to get some too. As for Tony Blair, that despicable little rodent should be keelhauled on some barnacle encrusted battleship then dipped in a jellyfish bath, rinse & repeat.

      I'm just sayin... ;)

    2. All I'll say is you have a truly wonderful imagination C , and I love it ! And yes, it did make me laugh out loud.
      Jelly fish and cages , priceless ! :))

  5. My earliest memory is still repeating it's self over and over everyday, "SOMEWHERE, SOMETHING, is BETTER than THIS"
    I've tried to come to terms with this notion for 55 years.
    I'm an Outlier, misfit, odd one, black sheep. I've never fit in anywhere, I have acquaintances, not real friends.
    I freak people out with my way of thinking. Example......

    I KNOW all human beings are equal , no exceptions, not one person has more value in any way, than another. But we need each other as a collective whole to prosper and grow.
    I KNOW animals have emotions and can "speak" if you have eyes to see.
    I KNOW trees and plants are "aware" of their surroundings. If you have eyes to see. The planet is a living entity.

    I don't feel free. I live in Michigan, but I feel controlled,observed,mislead,deceived,fenced in, held back.

    I don't belong. I never have and never will. I'm outta place, I can't go along to get along. I keep to myself.
    I tried this in my 20-40's trying to fit in and be part of the family. The family gaslighted,chewed me up and left me where I lay.
    People are harsh! I'm alone. I live with my husband in a house divided. My room is 12x12, its my living/bedroom. I spend 90% of my time here alone.
    I've no ways or means to support myself, I'm stuck.
    Like many people, living in a place/way they would rather not. Nope this isn't freedom.
    Somewhere, somethings got to be better than this.

    Our planet is so polluted and in pain, crying out for relief and a comforting balm.
    We trash everything, we kill, destroy, pollute, and do nothing to repair or replace or even try to heal.
    I KNOW we don't have to live like this.
    I feel like I'm missing something. I should be "there" instead of here. I can't remember something I should, and its just about to come to the front of my brain then just as fast is gone again, like the dream you're trying to remember.
    Again, I've always felt like this.

    I'm glad to have found your blog. I would really enjoy a nice long chat with ya, I'm sure we could see eye to augerye on a couple of things.

    Your blog is wonderful, you are a life line to some of us in here on the web.
    The Internet has saved me many a sleepless night & boring days.

    Happy New Year.....

    1. Thyself~
      The first person to comment on this post laid out six things I feel are very common to all of us who are homesick. Some years back I met an author named Scott Mandleker who wrote about us homesick seekers. The book is titled "From Elsewhere", and has some very good basic info in it.

      Yes your experiences are quite similar to my own, especially the part about my thinking freaking people out. We have quite similar views on the sorry state of affairs on this planet, and how we're killing the planet as if we had a dozen more to move onto. Hell, we can't even get to the space station without paying Russia to take us up there. They completely scrapped our manned space program and nobody says a word, just like Fukushima.

      The fact that we know there are far better ways to live on a planet without toxifying everything; but take no steps to get there, keeps me awake at night. As an experiment just mention the word "Fukushima" somewhere with a few people around ya; and watch the looks on their faces turn to feces!! We ALL know that Fukushima is still spewing death into the air ground and ocean for almost seven years now without anyone doing anything to stop/fix it. When was the last time you saw a story on Fukushima on the evening news or in the 'paper'?? Just remember Fukushima when you get asked to reincarnate on earth!

      Many thanks for the kind words regards the Blog; I've put up a little over 200 posts in the last 5 years, enough to keep one busy on a rainy day or sleepless night.
      ~Peaceful Blessings~

  6. I picked the wrong week to stop drinkin

  7. ♬ ♪ Comfortably Numb! ♬ ♪ We played the video to it twice New Year's Eve. For blithering trump & co., comeuppance, bigly. They should be homeless in Minnesota for the duration.
    I can remember as a small child trying unsuccessfully to communicate with others with my third eye. Bewildered and sad. What had happened to us? The stars weren't right. Desperately wanting to remember...trapped in hell.
    I go out to the chicken coops to love my chickens. They get unbelievable treats like walnuts in the winter. Give them more hay to snuggle, more treats, fresh water, pets. Love them, coo to them and tell them how excellent they are, and remind them that we are all in coops, not just them. Spring will come again.
    Parents? There was more than a little off with them, both of them suffering from PTSD, one quietly, the other wildly. School? Work? Torture beyond proportions. What were these humans? They say one thing while feeling another. This morning's dream of gleefully flying a tiny two-prop plane up and away from one of my past corporate hell jobs. Just hacked 6" ice off the (ugh) propane tanks, a blizzardly foot of snow on tap and then more deep was 24' below here a few nights ago.

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    Raise our vibration. Yes, I have seen this theme in a lot of writing and it's true. Have had many struggles with it, including incomprehension. But it's true. Spiritual warriors. Every time you lift another soul's spirit, including your own, an act of rebellion in a crazy world. Art, music, writing, dancing. It is our right as human beings to honor and celebrate life.

    1. Adaline~
      That any of us survived our childhood with wits and hearts intact is some kind of miracle, and maybe even proof that what we're seeking is really there, somewhere, all around us.

      The trip to 5D isn't across the galaxy. It is as close as walking upstairs, or tuning the radio to a better station,

      It's first a state of mind, else-wise how could we know of it. When it becomes real in our minds, then we can manifest it into this plane of existence

      Thanks for sharing!

  8. Nailed it.

    Another wonderful piece, C.

    Alan Watts said it perfectly when he said, "I owe my solitude to other people."

    Don't know if you've seen this documentary (4 parts), but it's a beaut.

    Thank God for other like-minded travelers of my tribe.

    Peace, brother.
    J. C. King

    1. Thanks for the link; I haven't run across it before but the general scope of the information is familiar to me. Perfect for a drizzling rainy day's entertainment.

      And thank God for readers who leave comments; without you (them) inclusive I might not have kept this going for 5 years.

      What keeps me going is when folks respond by writing stuff that makes me feel as if I',m actually helping to change things, even if on the smallest of scales.

      Peace Brother

  9. The smallest of scales is what we can influence as opposed to an individual who wants to change the world. If an individual can avoid doing harm, if a parent can be on instead of off, living by the golden rule, thats a life well lived and an example to others to emulate. Small is good and its more than enough.

  10. Nicely stated,
    Yes, the only way to get humanity to enlightenment is one heart, one soul at a time.

    Thank You

  11. Beautiful piece, Chaut! I have reposted it here, an excerpt with a link back to your post.

    Much love and please get hold of me so we can make a date...

    1. Hi sister!
      Many thanks for the kind words and reposting, I appreciate it.

      Indeed. Let me co-ordinate with the others, and I'll be in touch.
      Much Gratitude

  12. Being slightly facetious here... If, as you say, "We're the 'A Team' folks!" then why does my own comment, i.e., "I am weary beyond belief, I keep thinking to myself I want to go home. I don't belong here anymore. But I don't even know where home is..." make me appear nothing so much as a snivelling whiner, when viewed in retrospect? I suppose even the A-Team had their off days, though. :-/

    1. I hear you! Some days it's hard to keep a positive torque to my thoughts with so much bizarre shit going down.

      On those days being the "A Team"
      is not the same as
      Knowing you're the "A Team"

      If we don't step up to the plate pretty soon,
      the next 26 thousand years are going to literally be
      hell on earth.

  13. It will be about that long before I will consider coming back for more.

  14. Im not buying that we chose to incarnate during the iron age. We were dragged kicking and screaming.

    1. I think I agree with you. It was likely a hard sell bribing souls with dysentery and a new sword. Dangle a few smart phones and snow skis in front of us and we'll line up for years to incarnate here. Kicking and screaming is the only way they get ME to come back here again.

  15. Of course there are those among us and they are legion who can't get enough of kali yuga and they keep coming back after getting their ticket punched for another ride through hell. For them, kickin and a gougin in the mud and the blood and the beer is paradise and theyre living the dream. But they and their homeland wear me out and I think, you want it so bad, take it its yours, the fame, the glory, the money, the power, but in the quiet still moments and they are few I hear a faint call from the far distance across time and space, having passed through the membrane into the din and chaos. It is a beacon. Earth without me wont miss a beat. It will go and go as though I was never here. And thats ok.

    1. We shall slip away unexpected and undetected with no soul being the wiser.

      More room at the slop, always room for 1 more

      Never try teaching pigs to sing,
      it wastes your time and annoys the pigs.

  16. How to avoid being tricked back to another incarnation here? I've heard DON'T go to the light...? That sounds counter-intuitive but is it true? If I come back it must be my choice and not manipulation by parasites. I wanna go home anyway, and it ain't here...

    1. There are many who believe that prior to incarnation (anywhere) we choose our parents, lifemates, and major events in life: in order to learn what we must to grow towards enlightenment.

      Others firmly believe that it's all a cosmic crapshoot, and there is no order or sense to what happens to anyone anywhere. It's all random.

      The truth, I suspect is somewhere in between.

  17. All religions claim to know what happens when we die. Others claim we dont really die, we just exit our carcasses and return home. But dont you have to die first, then stay good and dead for a goodly while, then return to life with memory intact to really know? I suspect no one knows anything, they merely hope, or lie. If you can convince others that you know the truth, money and power will be yours. One more reason why earth wears me out. It is not a realm of truth but of appearance.

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  19. Say No To Reincarnation And Remember Who You Are!
    In5D March 17, by Stephanie MacDonald,
    ...How is forgetting helpful to one’s growth? How does something horrible happening to you due to misdeeds from a past life teach you anything when you have no memory of what you did? How can you balance the scales when you have no idea what’s on the other side? But yet you keep reincarnating over and over again and accumulate more and more lessons to learn from these past lives. So now you have all of these lessons you need to learn, but you get to have ZERO memory of failing any tests to begin with. It makes no sense at all. Yes, our lives are “blinks” in the big scope of Everything and our life purpose IS experience as All is just “the Prime Creator” experiencing itself in Infinite Many-ness, so having 100 reincarnated lives “in a row” is nothing in the big scope of existence; even the so-called forgetting could be chalked up as “just another way of Source experiencing itself;” HOWEVER there is no way of getting around the fact that FORGETTING HINDERS PROGRESS. Forgetting hinders the ability to turn knowledge into wisdom!...

    1. Be sure to check out my post reincarnation Karma and Destiny for some additional insights.

  20. Greetings Chautauqua
    You self profile as a data miner.
    I suspect you would come to appreciate this prospecting tip:

    1. So...
      you come here to self promote?